The romantic me...

Tuesday, November 6, 2007 &

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007 &

liars, liars, LIARS!!!!!!! i really hate them.. i cant believe it! promised to let me study but in the end, break their promise.. how can they do this to me?? yeah its true, i'm not their real daughter.. but they themselves promised that they will take care of me, treat me nicely.. WTF?!?!?! in the end this is how they treat me..

fine! fine! FINE!!! after that thing's over, i'll leave home and never ever come back to this horrible. terrible, torturing house!!! i hate my life!! i HATE it alot!!! tried cutting myself, hurting myself but its just no use.. no use at all.. until the day i met him, he's the only one that i can trust, who can give me happiness..

ever since that thing happened, i no longer trust anyone.. it took me a long time to trust back again.. and when i've set my heart on trusting them, they hurt me.. time and time again and again.. right now, there is only one persin that i trust... its him..only him...no one else..

Thursday, August 9, 2007 &

*yawn~~* didnt sleep the whole night hahas.. was watching 仙剑奇侠传 (Chinese Paladin) hahas.. its so nice to watch.. hmmm..well, staying up the whole night was partially because i wanna sleep in the morning at the same time as my dear dear hahas.. he's working night shift thats why..

he did ask me to go sleep but i dont want haha.. well, what can i say? i love him too much and i'm a stubborn girl.. haha.. not really that stubborn.. just a little thats all heeee~~~

went to my dentist a few days back to extract my wisdom tooth cause its causing me too much pain, trouble and sleepless nights.. BUT!!!! the doctor says that i've got to wait for another 3 more months before i can extract it out.. its to pervent even more pain.. *sigh* i guess i really have to wait then..

felix and i are still going strong, and getting stronger as months, days, hours, minutes, seconds goes by ^^ anyway, no matter what the adults do, they cant break us off cause i've already made up my mind.. i want to be with him for the rest of my life.. i want to be his bride, his wife, his one and only love..

hmmm i guess i can only sleep after 11am.. people are coming to see this house.. cause my godfather has decided to sell this house away.. i guess selling this house away, means i wont be able to have my own room to sleep in anymore, and no more privacy, that also means no more late night calls with dear dear *cries*

hmmm but nevermind.. once i am free, i mean once i got my freedom back, i can go anywhere i like, and stay anywhere i want.. which means, i'm going to his house and stay!!! Yippee!! haha i cant wait for that day to come!!!!

anyway gotta go now.. to watch my 仙剑奇侠传 waiting for lao gong to call me and then sleeping later!!

Friday, August 3, 2007 &

I DECLARE WAR!!!!!!!!!!!!! today's just another crying day for me.. but im slowly getting stronger already.. i need to fight back.. i know i can do it.. because felix's there to cheer me on..^^ being with him is the happiest time of my life..i wont leave him and he wont leave me.. i feel so loved.. this is the first time in many years that i felt loved..

you can say that i've got family who loves me alot.. but i dont feel loved at all.. i just dont.. and i dont know why.. know that they do love me.. but i dont have that feeling at all.. only when im with him.. i can feel that like im in heaven.. i dont wish to come out of this sweet, sweet, lovely, romantic dream..

i know i did wrong today.. i shouldnt have doubt him.. but i just did.. i dont know what made me doubt him.. however, he didnt take it to heart cause he knows that im feeling really confused and sad and well, too many haha..im really sorry dear to doubt you.. really sorry..

the war is still going on.. i am NOT going overseas to study.. i am NOT going to leave my lao gong.. i am NOT going to let them break us up..^^

im fighting till the end till the day i win.. and im still fighting ^^

i have finally made up my mind.. im not gonna go overseas to study anymore.. this is rebellion time.. this is WAR!!!! how can they possibly fucking try to break us up?!?! WTF!!! i fucking HATE them like hell..

for the sake of my love life.. for the sake of him, i'm gonna be strong.. no, NOT im gonna be strong.. i HAVE to be strong.. i CANT give up now.. i need strength to fight back..FIGHT till the end..

no way am i giving up him just for them.. no way am i going to leave him.. i need him.. here in my life with me.. i need him to be with me when we walk our own sweet, romantic, loving path..i have to fight for my happiness.. i must NOT give up.. he's the second and last person i want to be with..

no matter what, i WONT leave him.. i will NEVER ever leave him cause i LOVE him!!!!!!

Thursday, August 2, 2007 &

im feeling sad, confused and at loss.. i dont wish to go Australia to study.. i dont want to leave him.. i love him too much to be apart from him.. i need him to be by my side every single day.. maybe im too dependent on him.. but only with him i can be myself, i can be happy.. cause he's the only person that can give me what i had lost long ago..

right now.. daddy is forcing me to go Australia to study for 3 years!! 3 YEARS!!!! WITHOUT HIM BY MY SIDE PUSHING ME ON!!!!! i dont think i can do it.. i cant bear to leave him.. he means too much to me.. but he said that studying is really important for my future career and promised me that he'll wait for my return.. so that we can be together forever.. build our love nest.. have our own kids and everything..

however.. this nightmare comes to me every single day,every single hour, minute, second.. im really afraid that i'd lose him to someone in the next 3 years.. i have faith in him.. i really do.. but these bad thoughts just keep coming back to me.. its haunting me..

i cant live without him i guess.. i really cant.. i need him in my life.. no one.. and i mean it NO ONE can seperate us.. life's really meaningless without him.. anyway.. if i really have to go Australia to study, im gonna give it my best shot.. so that i can come back earlier to be reunited with him.. my loved one.. my one and only one..

i love you always forever, near or far, closer together, everywhere i will be with you, everything i will do for you.. say you love and love forever, never stop, never whatever, near and far and always, everywhere and everything~~

i love you dear dear lao gong!!!!! no matter what we shall never be apart.. never!!!!!!!

Monday, July 30, 2007 &

dyed my hair black yesterday.. lols looks kinda weird to me cause i havent seen myself with black hair for like so so so long hahas.. anyway below are the before and after effect ^^

this was before i dyed my hair

this was after i dyed

OMG i really look weird with black hair hahas but its kinda fun actually ^^ love to look different sometimes lols.. well, every girls do.. arent i so right? hehe

Sunday, July 29, 2007 &

just went off to look around the blog and i found out that the blogger named xiaxue is so disgusting.. man, i really hates her.. she's like a damn fucking bitch.. fancy picking on an innocent 17 year old girl.. criticising her for no fucking reason! that poor girl did nothing wrong in taking cute pictures!

well, everyone takes cute pictures!! i believe this xiaxue person does take too.. but what the FUCKING PROB IS WITH YOU HUH?? jealous that she's prettier than you?!?! well, in fact i think she's definitely prettier than you and cant she talks freely about her boyfriend?? i mean, she dares to type out her boyfriend's name in her blog means she wants the whole world to know that she loves him alot! dont you also blog about your boyfriend too you bitch!

i really hates the way you bitch about other people! and i dont fucking care if you're a celeb or not..(by the way, your show sucks!) and i dont fucking care if your favourite readers tag me scolding me.. all i want those people to know is that you can blog bitching about other people without thinking of their feelings! you're such a bitch! i pray that you'll be struck by lightning or a car and die on the spot!

please! zip your fucking and stinking mouth up! dont stank up the whole world with your stinking, gruesome words! and.. as for maia lee, i think she's great.. far more better than you! she can sing, she can dance, she can do almost everything! not like you, who only loves to bitch about other people! hope your mouth gets swollen.. or even better.. i hope you get some mouth disease so that you can stop bitching about people..

Saturday, July 28, 2007 &

ahhhHHHHhhhh~~~i'm sick, sick, SICK! gosh.. i think sis passed her germs to me.. *sobx* slept almost the whole afternoon and i cant sleep now lols.. hmmmMMmm~~

did some experiments with mash potatoes in the early afternoon before i sleep hahas.. my carrot with thousand island mash potato taste yummy! and guess wat? my aunties and my granny love it! hahas.. and i tired apple with mash potato too.. it taste yummy.. but a little too sour.. ^^ anyway i had a great time in the kitchen.. making mash potato is my speciality ^^

maybe next time i'll go try cheese with mash potato haha.. felix says to try with nuggets.. hmm that sounds nice ^^ will be going to his house to make them together with him.. oh.. that sounds so nice and romantic hehe.. making food in the kitchen with your loved one can be romantic ^^

anyway i gotta go rest.. i HATE feeling sick hahas its a terrible feeling.. more next time cheers!

Monday, July 23, 2007 &

on friday, 20 july 2007, 7.15pm, at Gleneagles Hospital, our little niece is born ^^ she a cute little baby^^ hahas.. but she does have a loud voice haha..

this pic is taken at the hospital's lift lobby ^^

this pic is taken outside the emergency room

the following day, we went back to our church Trinity Christian Centre ^^ this was taken outside our church's bus-stop ^^

Thursday, July 19, 2007 &

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRETHER!

ok i guess you guys dont really know whats going on i guess hehe.. today's my brother's birthday! went out to AMK HUB's NTUC to get food for our steamboat.. mmmmm~~~ *yumyum* and guess what? brether paid for all the food! THANKS BRETHER!!

look at the food.. arent they delicious? oh well haha they are not cooked yet heh.. oops.. but its a really sumptious dinner all thanks to my bro haha..

me and brether aka the birthday boy! hahas

bre and sis fooling around

big bro, sis and bre

tadah! the cooks busy in the kitchen hehe

sis punching big bro i think hehe

brether and papa

sis playing with her food haha treating it like a telescope hehe..

sis eating chicken hehe ^^

brether eating haha

bib half posing for the cam half eating hehe

big bro the condor monk haha

aunty serene, sis and bre posing while waiting for the food to be cooked

big bro and mom

aunt, sis and bre

big bro and me.. haha round round heh

mom and me hehe i look so damn short! ><''

me and granny

papa, bre and the condor monk aka big bro hehe

hope u guys enjoyed the pictures! hehe nites!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007 &

went to the cinema in Bishan with mummy to watch the 11.35am Harry Potter and The Order Of Phoenix! ooo its really nice!!! hahass.. had a really fun time with my mum.. while waiting for the show to start, my mum has already finished half box of popcorn! haha.. and she bought another box of it just for in case.. well guess what? while watching the show, she actually finished that whole box of popcorn hehe.. well i only ate half a box hehe cause im not much of a popcorn fan haha

right after watching the show, we went to Bugis Street to look around ^^ and i bought a sling bag! it cost about $30 ^^ love it so much..

just finished knitting a handphone pouch for my dearest brother whom i called brether hehe.. its his birthday today!!!!

even though i got something nice, i felt empty inside.. cause felix's not with me.. hehe i guess i really cant live without him.. i really want to be with him forever.. never leaving him.. as long as he's happy, i'll be happy.. ^^ he's my all.. no one can pull us apart..

Dear Dear.. i really love you lots! never and wont leave you.. just want to be with you, be by your side for the rest of my life.. Muacks!

Monday, July 16, 2007 &

today's just another hot hot hot day haha.. feel really weird today.. wondering if i'm gonna fall sick soon or what.. damn tired.. have been sleeping quite early these few days but i'm just so tired..

anyway, on Saturday, bro, sis and i took some pictures in church while waiting for the service to start hehehe and they're cute ones hehe

bre and me with his tongue sticking out hehe

sis and me posing for the cam hehe

hope you guys dont mind that todays entry is so short.. but i'm really tired hehe sorry ppl i'll blog more on the next entry ^^

Friday, July 13, 2007 &

why? why? why? why is it always my fault when i did nothing wrong? why put all the blame on me? why is it always me? i've really had enough! i cant live like this anymore! whenever something's wrong with her, i get the blame, the scolding! the kind of disgusted look by all of you! i really cant take it anymore!!!!

i hate living with all of you! i want a life of my own.. i dont want you all to keep telling me to do this do that! i'm not a robot! i have a mind of my own for goodness gracious sake! i have the right to do what i want!

if this goes on, i might as well kill myself and die.. this is getting too much!!! i HATE my life and all of you!! but i dont hate one person who always will be by my side pushing me forward, caring about me, loving me.. i love you...

Thursday, July 12, 2007 &

How I Wish~~~

currently there are alot of things going on in my mind..

how i wish i never really got to meet those bunch of friends who always gets me into trouble..

how i wish i could just disappear into thin air, to a place where no one can find me.. that is of course except for my loved one(you should know who so obvious)..

how i wish i could forget about my hateful mother and father..

how i wish i can stop having nightmares..

how i wish i could stop this pain in my heart.. the pain that hurts me every single day..

how i wish i could just stay in the arms of my loved one forever

how i wish i could just lost my memory.. so that i can forget the sadness, the aches that are in my heart..

how i wish i could stop acting tough in front of others..

how i wish i could be me.. just me the one and only me..

how i wish...

ahhhhh! today is a boring day!! omigosh! i'll surely die of boredom hehe.. well, i cant help it cause felix's working today haha.. i gotta find some stuff to entertain myself hohoho!

hmmm... last night was quite busy.. my poor little sis.. helped her look for things regarding the singapore zoo in CHINESE!!! WTF! the teacher is really mad ya.. ask them to make brochures in CHINESE!! and its tough haha.. anyway, we kinda had interuptions hehe.. my bro came in twice and requested to use the com to do some banking stuff haha.. while waiting for bro to finish using, which took about 15 - 20 minutes, my sis and i did some cam whoring(hope you dont mind) hehe it was kinda fun too cause we took funny ones hehe..

aint my sis cute? hiding behind me when i'm taking pic didnt even realize it hehe..

*yumyum* just finish my dinner haha.. uncle bought back food for us!! it was really yummy however, i had to drink lots of water!!! cause i had not eat hawker food for a long long time.. all these while, i ate home cooked food everyday haha so no really used to the amount of MSG the cooks put hehe...

i'm damn worried about my precious sis.. she's been having diarrhoea ever since friday.. my poor girl.. gotta pull her to see a doctor soon..

my tattoo still hurts alot.. i shouldnt have listen to the adults to go for laser.. i love it lots!! however i love my boyfriend more hahas.. anyway, lasering off the tattoo is really a torture >< i cant sleep properly at night and i cant even move my shoulder.. the piercing pain is too much for me to bare..

time for me to go watch 恶做剧之吻 hehe ciao!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007 &

this morning i woke up to the sound of my dear dear hehe.. anyway, went to Tan Tock Seng Hospital for another round if laser.. argh! i hate it lots! the doc increased the pressure and the heat.. it really hurts alot.. right now, i cant even move my right shoulder *sobsob*

hmmm i guess i really got to learn how to put on make up haha.. i'm lousy in this kind of thing.. its just not really me.. well, what can i say? i'm a girl after all hahas..

i can't wait for the day when i'll be meeting felix!! haha missed him so so so much! being with him, i can be myself, i got back the thing i had lost since 11 years ago, which is feel loved by someone i love and i care and its the happiest time of my life! i've never really smile since ages that is until i met him ^^

got something for my sis haha a cute dolphin bookmark.. and she loves it lots haha.. she's crazy over dolphins.. hahas..

gtg now to talk to my dear dear hahas see ya!

Monday, July 9, 2007 &

Tychicus! I HATE YOU!!!! i wonder what did i do wrong? i only told him i had a boyfriend and yes, i love my boyfriend lots.. within only seconds, he changed and turned into a person whom i dont know at all..

He told me "I HATE YOU!" twice to me when i did nothing wrong at all.. made me cry for days.. and i forgave him.. now, just because i had a boyfriend whom i love alot and he loves me alot too, he turned into someone whom i dont know at all and said that i mislead him! WTF?!?!?! all these while, i've only treat him like my godbrother nothing else! and now he said that its my fault?!?! okay! fine! my fault! happy?!?!?! i wont ever want to see him again! he has hurt me enough and dont expect me to forgive him!

sheesh i gotta cool down.. no use getting angry over this kind of guy i guess.. i rather talk about Felix than him.. i love my dear Felix lots.. in fact, i feel happy when i'm with him.. whenever i feel sad or frustrated, he'll always be there to cheer me up, to make me feel loved.. its true i've never felt so loved before.. he has given me something that i had lost long ago.. which is love.. and i feel really safe with him.. i never ever wanna leave him.. cause i dont know what will become of me..

i just love listening to his voice.. it sounds so sweet when he calls me 'dear' ^^ haha okie dokie got to go^^ tata! ciao!

Saturday, July 7, 2007 &

had a really enjoyable time at my sis's school Art Fiesta concert yesterday. there were lots of performing arts all with bronze award and the movement and dance (M&D) got a gold with honors ^^

i love the school's choir (with my sis in it), military band and M&D the most haha.. well the following pictures were taken during the concert enjoy!